Shri Shankaracharya. It's so wonderful to have this lineage of teachers. sometimes I feel so utterly alone in this modern world. that Ilovetohatetoloveto svaha. svaha. svaha. Nisargadatta Maharaj was right..."until you realize that this world is full of suffering and to be born is a travesty" - or something extreme like this...can you then begin to understand that "you were never born and will never die."
"The real never dies. The unreal is never born."
- Nisargadatta Maharaj.
The real Gurus like to be tested. Guruji is telling me ENOUGH. of this nonsense. And to just practice. I got it today. At Mudita Yoga Center (it's really not mine and Shawn's yoga studio, it's really everyone's yoga space) - It was nice to come home to see the door wide open and everyone gathered for evening Dharma Punx meditation. Which was sublime.
Spent all day yesterday with Amma Karunamayi Ma in total silence for most of the day. That just brought up so much. Because I went in DEEP. Into the vast darkness of silence. Astonishing as I saw all my Ashram sisters and brothers - Ananda Ashram - Durga Devi too - all the way from San Fran. And I could feel all of us go deep. Guruji comes through all Gurus for this one.
And when I got home - I LOST it. Completely went bonkers. That was such a maya. Lila. maya. Lila. All the same. But I LOST it. because I needed to lose all that. And it's interesting as it's all just as real as the total bliss I felt today. I was actually asking God why it was that even if I felt complete serenity and bliss did I still have PAIN? And loneliness. And grief? And sorrow? And Guruji again, explaining that these things don't go away. Desire. Wanting. all that. But look, feel how blissed you are around all that?
true. In meditation today with our lovely Dharma Punx, "So Ham" hum. so sweet in my heart like petals. sweet love. And just now chanting the Hanuman Chalisa for Hanuman. The nadam is so loud here at Mudita - like such an embrace of the divine. But who is here with me? No one anymore. Just me. And you. And no one at all.
and love itself.
At Marshall's I found 5 pairs of shoes. that are so perfect for these feet that I have in this wee lifetime. Five. I was dancing around in them and laughing. And talking to my picture in the mirror - the picture that I am not - how I had died and gone to heaven. Giggling like a delighted child. I run into Illeana and her child - who shared in my rapture for a bit.
Happiness is so many people signed up for Mudita Yoga Center's Spring Cleanse with New Leaf Pharmacy. This is a very special place up here in the Catskills. I am so happy to be able to call this home. Even if my body is in Austin somewhere. "Consider the whole world your home," Guruji tells me again and again. I take his words quite literally.
Saprema,
Sumukhi
Yogafly
Lanuza
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