oh what a circus, oh what a show, argentina has gone to town, over the death of an actress called eva peron. words from evita, the musical. I thought I had musicals running through this noggin all day until I met Peter Papazoglou. The man has musicals, running through him like Niagara Falls. there are too many proselytizers, would be gurus, wannabe enlightened beings out there pretending to have some sort of secret that you, mere mortal, do not have. I actually feel that the reason I go back to Ananda Ashram again and again and again is because all the teachers are so REAL. totally human and totally cosmic. No one pretending to be enlightened. all humble all ego everything lived out wide in the open. it's Guruji, you know. He's such a lion. even without a body, you can feel a smackdown when you act or feel like you're superior to someone else because of your spiritual attainments. It's like a roar - and what do you think this is coming from? and then boom - love and bliss - must prevail. My father, I called my dad, Mr. Lanuza, my real dad - not the "tvam eva pita" - the other day because I've had tendencies to wake up on the temper tantrum side of the bed - since childhood. which is why morning practice is so important. and I said dad, please help make me feel better. and he said "what are you feeling?" and I said, anger. And he said, "well, anger only hurts you." and then began to speak to me of love and Christ, prayer and silence. and I began to cry and he kept talking and I then moved to laughter. How blessed am I to have a father like this! May all beings have such great parents in one lifetime or another. what happens is that you do this for yourself...in practice, we are our own greatest fathers and mothers. God always intervenes when we relax enough and release enough. especially supremely active folks like myself. and my father does not see himself as a guru, spiritual teacher, anything! perhaps too humble he is. and I get to see all these people throwing themselves at me like God's next answer to all my problems. Who said I had problems? only the unenlightened only see the problems. that they need to "fix" if you spend enough money and time with them. Don't worry if I send people your way, you don't count in this tempest I'm having against false prophets. and I love you anyway. can't help it, I love everyone.