patience

my wonderful friend

my father always told me when I was a kid that I had none

And he said I should develop it.

I've figured out how to deal with my impatience. 

I layer everything on top of each other - and everything happens simultaneously.  None of this one by one business :-)

Yet - I do everything in my life one at a time.

I type these letters one at a time.

And I breathe each breath one at a time.

And I walk down the hill and catch each butterfly one by one...

and let them go.

patience, I've learned

is just about living every single second like it counts

not missing anything

not wanting anything

not desiring anything

at all

and having it all

the depth of even my aches and sorrows

and full fledged joys

my taming of my mane

and holding people's hearts on one hand

and kissing every single person on the third eye

and wishing that

all their dreams may come true

what most don't realize

is that all their dreams already have

and wanting anything more, well, is perfect too

because it will all happen and disappear in the blink of an eye

Hold on to

I-AM

the goddess whispered to me as a migraine hit like a tornado

and I realized it was not my migraine I was feeling but someone else's

and I heard this voice in my head that

said - "we never tell you to take things on that you can't handle"

"we always say,

meditate on I-AM"

And I did this for a few minutes and early this morning at the crack of dawn

and everything BROKE open and I freed myself from everything

but for a second.

And more.

Ahhh.