Pulsastion of Godhood - Journey from the Known to the Unknown

with Baba Bhagavan Das Bodhisattva

This book by Shri Brahmananda Sarasvati - is the end of me.

It is the story of his meeting his Guru.

Here is one excerpt:

"Now listen to one day's story.  I had the book of Pantanjali's Yoga Sutras and I had a doubt about some formula.  So I took the book.  When I reached the ashram it was three o'clock, and I never saw him (Baba Bhagavan Das) with luxurious life as he was that day.  One after the other, he was bringing suitcases filled with Kashmiri dresses, examining them and putting them together nicely, then taking another suitcase, taking out everything, very costly things.  This was going on, and finally I was tired.  He did not even care whether I was sitting there.  No, he was busy with his own work.  First he told me, "Hello," then that was the end.

So I tried to ask my question.  I took the book and put it before him, between him and his suitcase, and I said, "Sir,  this is the formula.  It gives me trouble."

And he took the book by force and with red eyes he threw it away and in strong voice he asked one question.  "If the writer does not know himself, then who will explain it to him?  If the writer does not know himself, then who will explain it to him?  If the writer does not know himself...!"

I was sure that I was not the writer of Patanjali's formulas.  But he told, "If the writer does not know himself, then who will explain it to him?"

And I saw his red eyes.  I thought, "Have I done some crime in asking?  And have I insulted him?  Definitely I tried to interrupt his work."

So long, a feeling just like intoxication came, an extreme passing out sensation, and I took shelter against the wall.  I began to feel that as consciousness I was disappearing, and what I was automatically and spontaneously practicing from childhood came.  Every atom and molecule was vibrating, and in that magnetic ocean every pulsation was echoing the same message.  "If the writer fogets himself, then who will explain?"

It was a very great joke.  I passed ten hours there in the same vibration of energy.  When I came back, it was practically two or three o'clock, or it might have been a little later.  I opened my eyes, and he was just sitting, just smiling, with very lovely scenery.  No suitcase, no cleaning.  Just sitting.

He smiled.  "Ahh, Doctor, when did you come?"

I said, "Just now."

"How was your journey?"

I said, "It was perfect."

I have never seen in human history any man who could answer in this way.  The question was, "If a man is involved in vibration and if he goes deeper, what will his relation with vibration be?"

Sabdaartha-pratyayaanam itaretaraadhyaasaat

sankaras tat-pravibhaaga-samyamaat sarva-bhuuta-ruta-jnanam

(Yoga Sutras, III.17, Patanjali)

The word, the meaning and the feeling, these three things we have.  We speak the word, and the word has some meaning.  A book can give us the word, and a dictionary gives the meaning.  But the third thing is missing, the feeling.  Is it possible to enter that?  And how to explain the feeling?  Through words, try to explain the feeling.  You have to use words, but still the feeling is missing.  How can we reach that?

And that point he took as his topic.  And the missing feeling came.  And that was the feeling of oneness."

- by Shri Brahmanada Sarasvati, Ramamurti S. Mishra, M.D.